/sci/ - Science & Math

i spam alot yes but...STEM related not meth this time.

i am in biochem currently, for a grunt work lab tech job. i want something easy. i have disorganized schizophnia the guy thinks. not schizo-affective. this was cause when i wrote the essay like paragraph detailing my traumatic events that cause psychosis, he saw how I think naturally and not when i am trying to fit in or be easy to talk to. or after i proof read.

i also brought up I said gibberish. which was new, happened recently. made me analyze myself more and realize my speech is poor as fuck and so is my writing once i looked back on 4 year old MSN logs with a girl who is also schizo. her writing is getting bad like mine, but she can survive being a blonde ditzy hot girl. i cannot really function as a choppy sounding, forgets word mid sentance, gibberish gabbling grown man who looks like a russian drug dealer. i am avoided HARD. i never knew why, it's how I talk. my body lanauge as well he said, I sit very still and my eye contact looks confrontational and 'dead eyes'.

what job in STEM is good for schizophrenia? i cannt do 40 hour a week. 20.
and what major? i was tihnking maybe psychology and then doing drug/alcohol counseling if i clean up? seeing as i'd know more and relate to the patients than the doctors who act like they know about drug when they've never done them or been around the real world. just their clinical setting of drug addicts who come in for help. plenty are out there, 20-30 year veterens of coke or speed but doctors always say they doubt those poeple exist.

counsellor a good choice for a schizo? or lab tech? help please. i am not sure. i know drug dealer doesnt last forever though