/sci/ - Science & Math

You should have the chance to explain your poor marks in the first year when you submit your applications (just throw in a letter along with your transcript). I can't say for certain whether that will have an effect, but I'd imagine it would be taken into consideration, especially if you do well in your subsequent years.

Also, your first year is gen eds, right? Retake the two classes if they're required, make damn sure you get good grades in them. Make sure you do well in your core degree courses, and you should be able to pull out of this.

It matters what you failed - failing a Spanish class when you're a chemistry major is nowhere near as bad as failing Orgo I and applying to grad school for organic chem.

>>4663962
I failed calc and OChem as a biochem major sadly. I might just stick with my BS. I had a horrible proffesor. I got an F in lecture, 84% in lab. My lab professor and I clicked. I could not follow my lecture professor at all. He gave us stuff that wasn't in the book and shit like that.

What kind of delusions did you develop? Did you become violent? Did you have visual / auditory hallucinations?

>>4663971
I get thoughts in different voices in my head. I act different around my family than me friends. I think people are reaching for a weapon when they put their hands in their pockets. I think women talking to me have a bf around the corner ready to rob me. Etc....

My life is filled with fear when not on drugs.

I experienced negative symptoms. Lack of motivation, inability to feel pleasure (except for narcotics). Flattened affect. It ruined my relation ships with friends and my girlfriend. Then i got more stressed and crazier.

>>4663976

Are you still using narcotics? I have friends who fell into drug use and they experienced many similar symptoms while in withdrawl. It might not be that you're schizo, you might just have a drug habit that you need to kick.

What drugs did you abuse? By the way you describe it you aren't really ready to give them up, which you're going to need to do if you're sincere about picking up the pieces.

>>4663981
I had these symptoms since age 15. I started using Crystal meth at age 21 because I was horribly depressed and nothing in life was fun. Not even vidya or sex. Crystal gave me a few psycotic breaks so did weed.

I'll stop using drugs when I can feel pleasure naturally. You don't know how much it sucks to get no enjoyment out of normal things people do.

>>4663983

I know exactly how it feels to get no enjoyment out of things "normal" people do but if you want your medication to work drug abuse is going to do nothing but interfere.

That and there are about fifty other reasons you shouldn't be doing meth. Seriously, that shit is going to kill you. It's not a matter of probability- use meth for long enough and it'll kill you. Period.

Do you want to die?

>>4663993
At 50 or 60 I don't care. I can't see myself having a family. I get my Crystal from a mexican gang with alleged cartel connections.

I did a TLC on it with hexane and there was one impurity in it. So it's farely good Crystal. But yeah I know it's bad for me. It's hard to quit bro, it makes my life better in the short run.

>>4663948

talk to your schools disability services.
they should be chill and helpful.

ive got one tard and several fatty classmates that use their services.

dont get lazy and go the shut-in route.
explore your potential.