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>>16087005
>be a chronically depressed and suicidal pre-med STEM major
>fail English 101 last year because I stopped showing up to class and handing work in
>retaking it online at a community college with my 18 year old sister
>get A's on all the assignments all the way through
>sister tells me on Tuesday the final paper was due yesterday and to get it in today
>I procrastinate until Friday to hand it in.
>he emails me grades were already due and he can't change the grade
>mfw I get a D
I shouldn't be in college at all, I'm clearly not ready for it, something is wrong in my brain. But my parents are forcing me and pushing me through. What am I going to even tell my parents and my sister? I got a D in the course because he didn't take my final.
I want to blow my brains out because my mind is so fucked up I hate living like this and it makes everything miserable and makes me fail at everything I do. Fucking ADHD autism depression anxiety combo
just kill me
Now what can I even do here? Beg the professor until he gives in? Will he even give in? I know for a fact he can change it. Even if I had to go to administration so they'd say he can change it.
Or I could just KMS