/sci/ - Science & Math

See title.

I have schizoaffective disorder, which my doctor tells me is a form of schizophrenia and not really it's own disease so go by that i guess if you duno what SAD is.

>edit: way long, but i think needed info

Is it bio, and am I mentally hanicapped for life? My doctor evades this question every time. As well as my questions about my negative symptoms and if he can treat them? He suggests theyre just depression and offers an SSRI i already tried that failed, or shot me into mania and made me a nervous wreck. hes skilled at evading, he knows i get nervous and then forget what i was talking about and he steers the convo away and by the time i remember to ask agian, times up. Fucker

My disability department at my school has several PHDs that are free to talk to. Counselors. They said my social skill problems, speech issues (this is why people avoid me unless grown men. i creep girls and college aged young males out. idk how pausing a lot and having 'dead eyes' does that though. or talking fast like a meth head who has memory problems and gets lost mid sentence. I dont think im that bad to talk to or that wierd. but i guess objectivly, i dont have friends IRL except my meth dealer. and his kid is schizo, only reason he deals with me i think. he got MAD when my old dealer (His cusomter) bragged to him about ripping off a 'stupid schizo' charging me $500 for 7g of meth. Okay price, but the 'guy' who is the boss sold it to my old dealer for $200 a 7g. And he'd take off .5g for 'gas money' too. When my new guy heard about this, he made my old dealer text me and tell me i need to see him instead. he now sells to me at 14g for $350. this isn't bathrub crank. massive rocks. this is better than the stuff i got from my old best buddy who was a seasoned veteran. its not shke n bake. i washed a few batches 75-85% weight after cold acetone

rambled, Anyways. about the /sci/ience again, the meth is related actually, well dex amp vs methamp for neg symptoms.